help...anyone?

okay this has been really bugging me alot lately
when someone breaks up with someone who they loved alot but u know its over
you'd delete the pics of you and them wouldnt you?
i mean come on you dont wanna have to keep going to ur page and seeing that one person who ment alot to you and they say they loved you hn thats fuking bullshit!
if they loved you they would've let you explain about alot of stuff and tried to yet again give u another chance but no... no they automatically think the worst of you and ignore you.
okay yeah this is me getting mad about the fact DAKOTA still has that pic of us up and my hack on his page i went to his page today to block him and everything and i seen them STILL their.
even on his facebook page the picture of us is still their i know this cause my sister still has him added as a friend and i look thought her friends list for any new random ppl to talk to and fukfukfuk...
idk what to do anymore thought i could try and forget him but i cant every song i ever showed him and he called it way to emo for him but he still listened to it with me, the band stereos he went to the concert with me and i cant even listen to them anymore cause i listened to that stupid summer girl song with him like ALOT.
abunch of all time lows old songs frm their 1st two albums i cant listen to, i cant enjoy listening to fall out boy either, patrick stump has become idk he doesnt apeal to me anymore, its 5:30 and im wired on a energy drink and i've been having thoughts again...
those thoughts are all around commiting suicide so much has happened since i met dakota. i fell inlove and i fell hard in the end he wasnt their to catch me. when i first hung out with him before we started dating he made me promise i wouldnt cut anymore. okay if ur reading this and ur like "shayna cuts?" its not a fucking secret u can plainly see all the scars on my wrist's i told him about everything which major scar was from what and why, but i promised him i wouldnt anymore but three days after we broke up i couldnt take it anymore i started cutting again and i feel soo bad about it and today i had a thought he doesnt want me anymore, my family doesnt really care about me all that much, and my friends idk theirs nina who cares about me alot, colby whos their all the time for me lately, vanessa my bestfriend since we were 2 and her sister talia those are the only friends who really care about me i think idk for sure tho but i thought maybe i souldnt be here i almost died last year from a pill over dose but i didnt idk why tho.
atm im listening to Good Charlottes Hold On and it makes me want to be happy and think it'll get better but nothing ever seems to work for me,i got soo mad at george last night on facebook and twitter and i told him to fuck off and dont ever talk to me again. idk why i did that George has bee such a help since i've meet him and the guys bk in 2007 they're like family older brothers and i sorta messed up with my ciukurescu.

can someone just please help me send me a msg i need to talk with anyone im like almost giving up on everything right now and im scared, really scared so please if anyone reads this msg me on here or facebook please...?

xoxo.
-S